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If possible go back to stay with your mother and take your teenage boys with you. Before you can comment to a better life for your children you must first make a commitment to yourself. What is more important in your life the drugs and the harm that it does to you pysically and mentally. Or a life that is drug free. And a feeling that money can;t buy. You do this yourself and for a better future with your children. Humble yourself and say what you mean and mean what you say to a power that you feel is greater than yourself. Belief in what you pray can and will happen. And watch the miracles you never dreamed of begin a new life for you and your children. leave your past let it go , place that road behind you. Stop blaming yourself and others for the reason you choose to get high. We can't begin to move forward if we keep living for yesterday.